I remember the wonderful things about her and I smile but I get teary thinking I didn’t know her as well as I should have.
At 15, my only concerns were boys and getting my driver’s permit. I should have paid more attention to her. I should have – well I guess those shoulda, coulda, wouldas don’t really count now.
My mother, Edna Earl Ward Taylor, would be 70 this year.
As I grow older, my memories of her fade with each passing year. I can look back through my mind’s eye and see a few moments and those precious moments are the ones I cling to most.
I know my mother loved me. and I know she knew I loved her too. But the stories I hear about her now show me how little I paid attention to who she really was.
I remember little things – like her favorite perfume was Wind Song and she loved Harlequin romance novels. Her favorite color was purple – and that was the color of her burial dress.
She used a walking cane because she had back surgery and one of her legs was half an inch shorter than the other.
She loved makeup – blue eye shadow was her favorite. She wore fake fingernails because her real ones always broke off right at the tip.
I can still see her gluing them on when I close my eyes and take myself back.
She loved Marty Robbins and old musicals. She loved the movies, “The Robe,” “The Sound of Music” and “Sparticus.”
She liked mystery shows like “Murder, She Wrote,” “Columbo,” “Diagnosis Murder,” “In the Heat of the Night” and “Matlock.”
Her hair was always short and it turned grey by the time I was 14.
My mother was diabetic and she gave herself injections twice a day. I am diabetic now, which is something I wasn’t glad to inherit from her, but it makes me understand the struggles she endured.
She sang alto in the church choir. She was so proud when I sang my first solo that she taped it on a cassette recorder.
I can almost see her when I look in the mirror and when I do I see the sometimes wavy hair I inherited from her side. I hear my voice moving to alto when I sing in the choir now.
I can think of no better gift to give my mother than to continue to do her proud.
Mom’s Poem
I believe in angels
And just because I do
I know my mom is watching
Over me right now.
I know I’m not a failure
Or disappointment too
Because she’s watching, guiding
And helping me move through.
I wait for the Lord to come
Because I know ’tis soon
I’ll walk with her up there
And with Jesus too.
My mother was the best
She taught me about Jesus
And now she looks on with pride
As I follow all my dreams.
Even though I miss her
I know her love will never die
And even though she’s gone
I still wish her a ‘Happy Mother’s Day.’
